I have loved you since October 30, of 2010.
My heart and mind have belonged to you for years.
You left me again and it came out of the blue. You told me I don’t make you happy anymore. That things aren’t like they used to be.
I waited for you.
I watched you get so many other girls out of your system.
But I waited.
A few days ago, you promised you wouldn’t ever leave me again.
But you did.
I’m in too deep.
I wish I could fall out.
You’ve been through hell and back, but I always found you in the midst of your misery to lift you back up and be there for you.
You were always hateful to me afterwords.
I’ve been living hell but in the midst of my misery, you were no where to be found. You never have been.
I still welcome you back into my life with open arms and an open chest for you to fill with my heart you stole when you’re around.
I told you I wouldn’t be here anymore the next time you left. You know that.
It didn’t change the fact that you still walked out with ease.
It didn’t phase you.
I miss you.
I love you.
For the past year and five months, I’ve waited.
In the end, I’m my own downfall for letting myself fall helplessly in love with someone who will be the boy to pull the trigger to my destruction.